Dear Josiah

Our journey together began in January 2007, just after Silas's first birthday. I was so excited when I found out I was pregnant. At first I thought you were a girl, but I was so happy when I was told you were a boy, a little brother for Si Si. For 9 months you and I were completely one. I talked to you, prayed with you, worshipped with you and loved you. On October 20th at 2 am my water broke and you were ready to make your entrance. Among many other feelings I was having, I remember thinking that Granny wasn't going to make it in time to help me bring you into the world, but little man, you had a different agenda. A 28 hour agenda. I smile now, but at the moment I just wanted you to be born. The moment I saw you I had this feeling like I was meeting someone that I had loved my whole life. 10 fingers and 10 toes, your perfect lips and small face, and your little baby smell- I was captivated. 

Josiah, you have brought joy into our lives since the day you were conceived. I am so happy that God chose us to be your family. You are a little boy that never stops smiling. It has been so fun watching explore and learn the world around you. My deepest prayer for you son, is that you would grow into a man that loves Jesus and like your namesake, be a mighty leader for your generation. Little man, you have a great destiny in Jesus. You are a son of the most High God and that alone is a great calling. Yiyah, I look forward to watching you grow in Jesus. Thank you for always having a smile for me, thank you for continuing to bring joy to my life. You enrich who I am every day. 

So darling, Happy Birthday. Your first year has been such a good one. You are so loved and cherished. Hold on to Jesus darling and cling to his love. Rest deep in His mercy and never lose sight of His goodness. The world will try to tell you that might is more than right, that beauty is on the outside and being good is a losing fight. So, hold on tight to Jesus and chose Him and I promise you will never go wrong. I love you Josiah Caden Ballantyne. Be blessed today on your birthday! 

All my love, 

Mommy